Honestly, I am not sure where to start today. Over the past week or two, I have been feeling very torn and confused. Positive things are happening, but I am just not that interested. In fact, I could give a damn. For instance, I attended Lucky FABB, a totally hip and cool blogging conference and celebration. But I returned home, feeling overwhelmed by all the information, confused with how to use said information and torn on if I even wanted to put in the effort. Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy blogging, I enjoy receiving comments, I enjoy reading your blogs too. But at times, I feel like throwing in the towel.
Some days, I want to post beautiful pictures with little to no words via the blog for you to see and other days I just want to say “Why?” Why am I doing this? The issue is that I am an emotional and passionate person, especially when it comes to success but I lack the patience to achieve such success. I am always encouraging my friends and family to move forward and for them to go for what they want but lack taking my own advice at times. Please don’t mistake my previous sentence as a lack of confidence; I AM a confident person…I just sometimes wants to be left alone. I sometimes just want to scream, I sometimes just want to give up, I want to slam doors, throw dishes or whatever other destructive behavior I can do without violating the law when things, just don’t go my way or the way I planned, frankly saying. This I think comes from having anxiety and being totally OCD with just about anything and everything. How do I control this? I am not sure. I try. I am sure as you read this you are thinking; wow…she is totally passive-aggressive. Hell, maybe I am. Is this an issue…I mean isn’t most of the world passive-aggressive in their behavior. Doesn’t everyone feel torn and confused sometimes?
Do you have any suggestions, on how I can get out of this funk?
What are your experiences? Have you ever felt torn? Or confused?
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